I recently traveled to Sydney, Australia for a work trip. My darling Charles came along too. And boy, oh boy, am I glad they did. It’s a big trip. 24 hours of travel to get there and 24 hours to get back home. Those of you who know me well, know that I am very much a home-body and an introvert. Yet, I was so happy to be there and honored to lead the sessions that helped build strong relationships amongst my team. I am so very lucky to have the privilege of working with some top notch professionals and all around good people. However, working in the office for 5 days was both challenging and rewarding. That got me thinking about how often I think and feel in “both and” terms. Such as…
I’m so capable and yet so still ill-equipped for many things in this life
I keep my heart open and it breaks nearly every day
I’m existentially exhausted and yet ready to create something new and big
I love my fellow humans so much and yet I hate where we’ve gotten to together as a species
I love being surrounded by my family and friends and I savor all the moments when I’m all alone
Part of me is so very scared that I’m messing up my kids and I know in my heart that I’ve provided them space for a life of joy and freedom
I am so important to so many people and I feel like a worthless burden
One of the lessons I learned recently is how healing it can be to hold opposing ideas or feelings at the same time. I’ve been practicing a lot with this and I’m noticing a shift in my mood. I’m more balanced with less ups and downs. And the emotions don’t feel as overwhelming because holding two opposing ideas at once and honoring the truth of each interrupts the automatic scripts that run in the background that urge me to react in an oh so familiar and anxious way. I feel it all and find peace through it.
Anyhoo, what have you been up to? I feel like it’s been ages since we’ve caught up. Let’s connect. Did I tell you, I’ve decided to run for City Council again? I know, I know, you’re thinking, “Typical politician, flip flopping over here. You said you were done!” But here comes another both and…
Just thinking about being on council again stresses me out and I love my town and want to make sure it remains a wonderful place to live for my family, my neighbors and all Niles residents for years to come
One last thing…I’m back to writing my book! It’s a science fiction novel. Thanks to my accountibilibuddy (thank you so much Justin), I’m cranking out about 500 words a day and writing consistently. Can’t wait to be able to share it with you, hopefully by the end of this year. Stay tuned!
Peace and love, jess