Playing with Light
My favorite time of day right now is 4 pm. And the reason for this is that I love how the sun comes in the window on the west side of the house and hits the everyday objects in my front room. I noticed it yesterday while Everett and I were discussing various things and nothing in particular. I stopped and said, “Ev, look at that! Isn’t it so beautiful?” They weren’t as enthralled as I was about the magical beam of light streaming through the window.
Today, I was sitting in my relaxing chair, just reading and, you know, relaxing, when I noticed it again! 4 pm! It’s time. At first I just sat and smiled, taking it in. Then all of the sudden I jumped out of my seat, without thinking about what I was going to do, but I just went with it. I had a little yoga stool over by the window, in front of the mirror and I sat there, letting the warmth and glow of the sun wash over me. And then again, I was moving without thought, reaching for my camera phone. The light was too beautiful to miss. I needed to capture it. So I played with it. You can find the photos attached. I didn’t edit anything, because I wanted it raw. I want to be able to look back and remember how much I love the sun at 4 pm at the beginning of March.
Then I remembered that earlier in the day, while I was mopping the kitchen, I noticed a morning sunbeam across the floor. I snapped a picture of that too, with my cute toenails. Not really having a purpose. Just one of those ‘Felt cute, might delete later’ kinda moments. Which reminds me of something else I wanted to share with you, my dear readers. (I know, I’m jumping around a bit, but I’m just so excited and full of joy right now, so just let’s just go with it, mkay?)
Has this ever happened to you? You’re just mopping the floor, minding your own business and a song comes on that you start jamming to and singing with all your heart and then suddenly — out of nowhere — bam! you’re crying? Like sobbing. But not the bad kind of cries, but like the ‘I feel so much right now my body has to leak out these tears because I might just explode’ kind of cry? No? Well, that did happen to me today. And it has happened many times before. And it’s never the same song. In fact, the songs don’t even elicit a specific memory, but they definitely crack open a big box of feelings. Today’s song was Chasin’ That Neon Rainbow by Alan Jackson. Once the emotions passed, I remembered that I used to dream of being a rock star one day. I envisioned myself being a singer or bad ass saxophone player. Perhaps the tears were a sign of mourning of a dream that is nearly completely out of my grasp. Perhaps I’m afraid that Henry will get caught up in the rock n' roll life because we all know that kid is going to be a star. In any case, I had a great cry today.
And I just realized, that song is about a different kind of light. So today I’m thinking about all the light in my life. And how grateful I am to experience it all. Hope you’re enjoying your time today with people you love. Take care, friends. xoxo, jess